Post-screwup musings

The worst part of all this is that when I do, almost inevitably, screw up, I spend the next day or two focusing on my failure. I dwell on the "woe is me, I'm a worm" factor, instead of the "be at peace you are forgiven" factor. And usually, this leads to a deepening of the cycle. I choose to take door #3 and intentionally dull and suppress my conscience so that I can continue doing what feels good for the moment, which causes me to move away from God. I'm determined not to let that happen this time.